Well, lets see. I'm in coffee bean now, first time siting in a cafe and just chilling and using my lappy. Feels quite, relaxed. Hah.

I won't be doing this if not for the fact that I 'can't' go home now. Quite Loser of me anyway..

I wish I could type my feeling out.

Sad life. Just looking for the next excitement to cross my path:(

Haha.

http://ssjunhao.spaces.live.com/

Just had a sudden urge to check my first 'blogging' place. Brings back memories, with my pro dude memory, it just relives the moment:)

An overall boring day to start the new year. Oh well, 364 days to go..

Really need a change in everything.

The thought of coming here makes me realise that I've gotten over it', sort of. Just that now I'm stuck in this stupid part of my life. Need a bitch slap from above.

Not the day for the recap of the year post. Just need to know that life is kinda screwed up now and money is running out fast. Ha.

Christmas is over, a load off my shoulder. The question is, will I stay, leave or everything stays as it is now.

Wasting time here. Should have a post about my super cool new Windows Phone. It has been a week already, so abit too late.

Getting ready to bathe and head for V3. Really wondering why am I going there, again. Like 3 nights in a row. Somebody stop me, if not money would. Heh.

The world is such a small place.

Ok, so last night was an eye-opener. The legend is ture and it is hard to get any more lup sup than that. Haha.

Shouldn't type any more. Its just a dream boy, wake up!

The feeling now is so idiot. In the middle - in between normal and high.

I know this has to stop some how. Really noob to be sucked in.

Haha at least I got my first (2) applause from a stranger at a pub. Not bad I would say, but she's attatched..

Lets see what the day has for me:)

Please wake up from this dream...

Althought I wish it was real.

Everyone seems disappointed in me..

I'm disappointed in God.

What a week. It will all end up in smokes, so just stay out of it.

Can you hear?

Hmm..

SO many things that no one knows or understands!

Really sian 1/2 with my life now. Make a choice..

Damn tired and sleepy and its only the 3rd night of lesson! How to go on for 20 weeks.....

I will really have the dose off effect 30mins after lesson begins. Damn idiot, must act normal.

Tomorrow my only 'off' day, has been given to the Christmas production. Thoughts of giving that up came again. Haiz. Frankly speaking, I don't think I'm up for it in the first place.

Comes the emo part. Cannot type out here also. Ahhhhhh!!

Finally the day has arrived - first day(night) of school. Wah damn tired and sleepy, did doze off for a split sec. How to carry on for a year at least..

The date turned out quite idiot. Haha what am I expecting..

Need to sleep soon. Stupid day ahead.

Tomorrow shall be a fun day, I hope. Haha.

And the day after, first day of school starts.

Super not ready, but I had my fair share of 'fun' already. Haha. Lets just hope I can focus.

Really why did things turn out this way?

Guess that answers everything.



Got introduced to this song. A new low.

Dear God.

Urgh really messed up!

My first visit to a club. HA. Abit gay, went with only one friend. I know he really sacrifice to come. Emo week.

Its really quite a pointless thing to do but yet can be quite fun, I guess. Haha. Still don't understand why would zulus go to such places.

Got the most ex beers I've ever paid for and to make it worse, I think I lost the change. Heh.

Tomorrow would be, stress. Hopfully today I get my ass off and go out first.

I really don't want to end it this way.

Hate the feeling of running against time..

So many things that really needs my attention and yet my focus is on other nonsense.

This really cannot go on. Hello Jesus, need some sort of help here now. Thank you.

Emo my life away. Heh.

Quite a night, drank and sing. Haha best combi. Not very high but still can. Heh.

Still got to wake up at 6 in the morning.

Emo Hao.

All the best for tmr.

Going to bed soon, just drank..

At least there is a ray of light. Thank You.

Really a sudden change in my mood. This is really like emo level max already.

Why like really why? I don't get it..

It keeps playing in my head, just hope when the time comes I can do it. Prepared for the worst outcome.

Wow what a day.

Session with Ps Helen. I guess I've found my way back, or rather grace has found me. Still a long way to go tho..

Met Ruth after that. All I can say is erm, mix emotions. Haha.

And the day ends with watching Naruto. I cried. Haha:)

The next 2 weeks shall be interesting.