A long time..

Yesterday's Alpha would have to be one of the best, with its ministry time - at least to me.

From the start, Ps Adrian said something about the usual, the presence of the Holy Spirit is strong here, stuff like those.. Honestly I didn't 'feel' anything at least not to how I would gauge it in the past.

Anyway, there was the word which lead to the ministry time of placing ourselves in the alter instead of things in our lives. And even up till then, I still didn't feel anything. I did noticed some were already crying and stuff. The only thing I could do is to just pray, pray, ask and pray. I wouldn't say worship because imo, you have to be at a certain level in order to be really worshiping God.

The things that were running thru my head were the things I'm praying and asking God about and you know, the usual, please speak to me about it. Like really hopping that whatever Ps Adrian pray upon me later whould have at least a link to it. Haha. It did.

The moment his hand was upon me, there was heat and I could feel it and tears would flow. Like I said, that was to me how I would gauge the presence. I would always ask for smothing more than just tears. This is really to me, one of the, or the 'real-est' thing about God. Yeah I know some would say, God has always been speaking just that I forgot or what.

I won't say what was it about but yeah. The best thing was it did not just end it there. There were things I was asking God about. Ps Adrian covered one of it, and the other was Nadia. Before Nadia prayed over me, she was praying over Brian and ofcos I could hear some of it la. Haha, and I was just thinking to myself, c'mon what about me? Aiya the feeling is just idiot lah.

Anyway I also felt the heat and the things Nadia said was what I was asking what to do next after what Ps Adrain said. Which also was one of the things I was praying earlier on. Haha, confused? Thats too bad. Haha.

I have to look to God.