Supposed to post it yesterday...

I rebonded my hair.

Haha, for the first time a new style after all the years of curly hair.

Feels quite idiot for now, like very light and thin. Cannot wash for 3 days so now my style is just a normal side parting.

Look very guai.

Yup, no picture thou. Heh

Ok, just watched Hannah on Ch33, finally the 2.30am slot is showing season 3.

Funny.

Moose, moose, make a moose, make a, make a, moose. Make a moose, make a moose, make a moose, make a moose, make a, make a, moose. *Ends the song with both hands at the side of your head*

I know, on words it doesn't sounds funny at all, but must know the beat and sing. lol.

Moose number 1 = Moose[Bruce] Lee

Moose number 2 = Moose[Luke] Skywalker, may the forest[Force] be with you.

Made me laugh.

Finally upgraded my laptop with more RAM and running Windows 7 (RC) on it. Feels kinda cool, but I didn't use Vista, so wouldn't know the difference.

Her smile brings a smile to my heart. Ha

Hmm, so after all these, looks like a childhood dream might still be possible.

Really needs alot of faith to get it started thou.. Haha.

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Anyway, today work was super boring. After lunch break there was like no cases to attend to. Luckily for some reason I decided to bring my ZEN along. Killed the time with music and drawing. And I got my one week pay, cos I started on the last week of May, so there is the pay for the month of May. Ok, I'm like repeating the thing..

At least there was another thing that got me happy. While the life door was closing, the girl agent from my previous post walked past, haha and she waved and smile. That gave me the balls to go and ask her for lunch. But she wasn't in when I went down again. Oh well.. I have 9 more weeks. Hah

Bump into a secondary school classmate on the train, Ryan. He is entering NS next week and I was quite shocked that he is in Pes B. To me, his skin exterior looks the same as mine if not worse. And he also has a letter from the Nation Skin Centre but yet he got into B while I am in E. Hmm.. Same goes for another classmate of mine, skin condition quite bad, but yet Pes C. If it is really God's plan to put me in Pes E, then thank you so much. But this would also only hold true if I were to be enlisted by Dec.

Haha, today I tried to make friend with a newbie agent that came to the helpdesk for some troubleshooting. She looks kinda like my age group so yeah. I used my pro dude drawing skills to impress her. lol. As you know, sometimes work can be boring if there is nothing to do. So I drew Winne-the-pooh, Tiger and Eeyore - copying it from a tissue box lah. I think my copy drawing skills not bad. I will bring back the drawings to hao lian:)

But nothing beats looking and having a short conversation with the 18th floor secretary:p

Re-watched The dark knight in the afteroon and the ending part I cried, again.

Went online reading Naruto again, the part where Jiraiya died, cried again.

I have such a soft heart. Haha. So funny that a movie or a book can make me cry so easily but yet..

"I guess that this is where we've come to" - First time hearing it and I love the song, got the beat.

I gave it another shot...

But what was the reply.. Nothing. Not even a single hair or smell.

Yesterday was just anger I felt, but today it is disappointment. I took that step, I asked, I seek ed. I also feel sorry for Ps Adrian, praying so intensely for me yet nothing happened. It almost seemed like everyone expect me felt the presence. Sad to say, I wasn't alone.

So isit our fault? Yeah, I guess so, cos it is never God's fault. Wow.

I just wanna shout it out! Can you ALL, especially those who crossed that "line-of-no-return", put that commitment into practice. How much does it says of a person, if they keep going through the same thing, time after time. I did not cross because I took it seriously, it is not the matter of not having faith, it is really weighing everything and be true to yourself. Better stop writing.

Like what Ps Ben said, encounter can be a daily thing - on the part where the presence of God is strong and real. But if it is an event to be set-up, what does it shows? Either God didn't change us or we just keep failing. Both are negative points..

Encounter hair, again.

I'm just so angry right now. I could type the things out, but it wouldn't be nice. So I'll just say that, IF there is another one next year, I won't be there.

So many factors that got me to experience this stupid feeling. Like one of the worse moment during a service/ministry. I just felt so much anger.. And I knew this would happen even before I reached the hall. I won't know what Ps Ben would talk about, but some how I just knew if I did turn up today, it would not be a pretty good encounter. Call it a vision if you want to. Hah.

At first I confirm will come on the Friday and for Thursday is a maybe, which is more towards a no. But plans didn't happen, so might as well come right. Wrong move, really. So tomorrow would be a 'see how'. Money aside, I paid $5 for a sermon I heard previously. With 'some' other topic mixed into it. But for someone with a pro dude memory like me, haiz.

Like I said, the more I type out the more idiot it will be. Although I did plan not to come for Thrusday, but during last week's Alpha's prayer for Encounter, I did feel hyped about it. So don't give me the bullshit of not expecting anything.

*I know some of you form Culture would read this. If you did had an encounter, good for you.

Urgh. Let work be fun tomorrow.