The battle is over soon..

(But not the war, I hope..)

Yesterday morning I was quite sad, and even cried. Emo, for short, I guess. haha. Not because of that but that..

If the day I accepted Jesus as my Lord and saviour, was the day my skin condition had gone worse. Shouldn't I believe that there is this Devil/Satan doing things to our lives, just to pull us away from God? I think I believe that..

Yet we know that everything we are going thru is in God's plan? His plan is bigger than anything, so we just have to go thru it? Be it good or bad, He allows it, cos well, He is GOD, He knows whats best for us?...

We pray for strength to carry on during tough times, to ask for God's help in our situation. And I must say, I'm quite suck in doing that, and so, the battle is a losing one for me. The Devil sure knows our weakness, and he ain't stopping till we give in.

Bad news for you, I'm not going to backslide or what, cos I've already said I've seen enough to know the Truth. But, I guess you might have achieved what you wanted. Because for now, I don't think God will heal me.(I know He can, just not on me) I admit, I'm weak, and you could just pwn me with another 'skin attack' on some new area ya. If that really happens...

You are stronger than me and I just some how couldn't get God to help me. Guess I failed in whatever God wanted me to have at the end of this 'test'. I do not want to feel this way, I really don't want to.. Damn.

Steroids doesn't even seem to help now.. Fighting this battle alone.. Well, there is still one more thing I havent really tried. Or actually many things. Everything that I want, to happen is not happening because I'm not dessprate enoght? The little faith I have left is just about to be crashed. Just hope(and pray) that this War would be over soon..at least before I give up fighting it.

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This week's Raw seems nice to me. It is the last Raw appearance for Ric, and boy was that last speech and thank you and stuff, touching. I also liked the match between Jericho and CM punk. Cos the crowd was chanting, "Lets go Jericho, cm punk!" Haha. High~ And Big show is a face now I guess. yay. Can't wait for a match against Kahli.

I've just downloaded the Adobe Premiere Pro CS3 'trial'. Wow, first look at the whole interface and I'm quite scared to use it. Its like really for the pros. Guess I should just stick to Windows Movie Maker. Lol. Noob, for not knowing that such software existed. Haha, hope that someone would really help me. :D