Alpha Chalet

Decided not to stay over. Dunno why, just feeling emo. Hah, actually I think I know why I don't.. Just feel sianz that still need to pay $18.. Its like ... ... ...

Only thing I liked was that can slam dunk with the basketball court, but can't play a proper game cos of the rim. I don't understand why some girls are just so afraid of the ball. Haha, like when throw already straight away run away.

Did I mention that I'm feeling ass over paying so much...

Dao Xiang (Paddy Fragrance)

This is the latest song from Jay Chou. His new album should be coming out on the 9 Oct. I think I'll be getting it.

Anyway, here is the song from Youtube. You can download it from here. (right-click, save-as)

Below is the translated lyrics and han yu ping ying. (Taken from jay-chou.net)

對這個世界如果你有太多的抱怨
dui zhe ge shi jie ru guo ni you tai duo de bao yuan
If you have too many grievances towards this world,

跌倒了就不敢繼續往前走
die dao le jiu bu gan ji xu wang qian zou
Having fallen, you lose the courage to go on

為什麼人要這麼的脆弱 墮落
wei shen me ren yao zhe me de cui ruo duo luo
Why do people want to be so weak and fallen?

請你打開電視看看
qing ni da kai dian shi kan kan
Please turn on the television now and see for yourself

多少人為生命在努力勇敢的走下去
duo shao ren wei sheng ming zai nu li yong gan de zou xia qu
So many people bravely fighting for their lives

我們是不是該知足
wo men shi bu shi gai zhi zu
Shouldn't we be content,

珍惜一切　就算沒有擁有
zhen xi yi qie jiu suan mei you yong you
Cherish all we have, even if we don't possess them

＊還記得你說家是唯一的城堡　
hai ji de ni shuo jia shi wei yi de cheng bao
I still remember you said home is your only castle

　隨著稻香河流繼續奔跑
sui zhe dao xiang he liu ji xu ben pao
Following the paddy fragrance, the flowing stream, I continued running

　微微笑　小時候的夢我知道
wei wei xiao xiao shi hou de meng wo zhi dao
Smile, I know the childhood dreams


　不要哭讓螢火蟲帶著你逃跑　
bu yao ku rang ying huo chong dai zhe ni tao pao
Don't cry, let the fireflies take you away, escaping

　鄉間的歌謠永遠的依靠
xiang jian de ge yao yong yuan de yi kao
You will always find serenity in folk songs

　回家吧　回到最初的美好＊
hui jia ba hui dao zui chu de mei hao
Go home, return to the sweet past

不要這麼容易就想放棄　就像我說的
bu yao zhe me rong yi jiu xiang fang qi jiu xiang wo shuo de
Don't give up so easily, just like what I said,

追不到的夢想　換個夢不就得了
zhui bu dao de meng xiang huan ge meng bu jiu de liao
If the dream can't be reached, then just follow another dream

為自己的人生鮮艷上色　
wei zi ji de ren sheng xian yan shang se
Add bright colours to your own life

先把愛塗上喜歡的顏色
xian ba ai tu shang xi huan de yan se
Paint LOVE in your favourite colour

笑一個吧　功成名就不是目的
xiao yi ge ba gong cheng ming jiu bu shi mu di
Smile, fame and success isn't the aim

讓自己快樂快樂這才叫做意義
rang zi ji kuai le kuai le zhe cai jiao zuo yi yi
Be happy. That is the whole meaning

@ 童年的紙飛機　現在終於飛回我手裡
tong niang de zhi fei ji xian zai zhong yu fei hui wo shou li
(Just like how) I finally found my lost childhood innocence

＃所謂的那快樂　赤腳在田裡追蜻蜓追到累了
suo wei de na kuai le chi jiao zai tian li zhui qing ting zhui dao lei le
What is happiness? It's chasing dragonflies in the fields barefooted till we're exhausted

　偷摘水果被蜜蜂給叮到怕了　誰在偷笑呢
tou zhai shui guo bei mi feng gei ding dao pa le shui zai tou xiao ne
Tried to steal fruits but suffered so much beestungs until i am scared. Who's snickering (at me)?

　我靠著稻草人吹著風唱著歌睡著了
wo kao zhe dao cao ren chui zhe feng chang zhe ge shui zhao le
Leaning against the scarecrow, enjoying the wind, singing songs till I fall asleep

　哦　哦　午後吉他在蟲鳴中更清脆
o o wu hou ji ta zai chong ming zhong geng qing cui
Oh~ Oh~ In the afternoon, the guitar chords sound more crisp amidst the cries of the insects

　哦　哦　陽光灑在路上就不怕心碎
o o yang guang sa zai lu shang jiu bu pa xin sui
Oh~ Oh~ The sunlight shines on the road so there's no need to fear a heartbreak

　珍惜一切　就算沒有擁有＃
zhen xi yi qie jiu suan mei you yong you
Cherish everything, even if we don't possess them

Repeat ＊＊＃＊

Nice eh:)

Movie review: Connected

I went for the Gala premier of <Connected> last night at Lido. Louis Koo, Barbie Hsu and director Benny Chan was there last night too. Too bad, I didn't bring along my camera.

This is the first re-make of an Hollywood film by the Chinese side. It was based on the show, Cellular. I didn't watch that movie, so can't compare the difference.

I dunno how to write about it -.-" Worth the money to watch. Thats all I can say. Loser I know. It is excited la. Only thing is the guns have like unlimited ammo and the ending 'too good.' Heh.

*Opens 1 October
8/10

Man or God?

IF my leg area and subsequently my whole eczema is cured at the end of this week, who should I thank...

Time of the month

Where I have mood swings.. Ha-ha-ha. Lame..

Its the little things that could pissed me off. Oh well. At least I know someone can notice it straight away.

Met Tianann for supper again, well, we've been meeting up lately. He drinks and we talk and talk and talk and sing. Haha. He just told me to pray and read the bible daily. He is doing it. Such a funny situation if you know the whole story.

Haiz...

End of week 3

Which means 9 more weeks of boring school. But I think I know how to make life easier for me. I can reach school at 12pm. My friend would sign in for me as usual. Come during lunch time at least when entering the room not so bad, that is how I feel.

For the past 2 days, I just come school to watch a new Taiwan drama. Not really that new, it aired 8 episodes already. Is Hot Shot aka <<篮球火>>. Starring Jerry Yan, Show Luo and Wu Zun. Lame show, but can laugh and also cry. Haha I teared for like more than 4 scenes already. But I must control, later people beside me think I crazy. But I did LOL loudly. The 2 female lead also not bad, chio and hot. But the basketball also idiot kind, fake with abit of real skills. Luo Zhi Xiang character is someone like Hanamichi in <>

At least the hurmor here is BETTER than crappy movies like Ace Ventura. Stupid lame show that only Ben would like. No wonder my father hates Jim Carrey. All his kind of show I also can act.. Last night Ben suddenly want to watch this noob show, so he go buy the DVD and came over my house to watch, with Gavin. Wasted my time...

Something wrong with Blogger in my school. When I go to my dashboard, I could be in other people's account. And when blogging, the time would always be 9/5/08 10:41AM.

No title

(Couldn't thought of one)

This morning(12mn) was the release of my results. Not really scared, although if I happen to fail that one repeated module, then bye bye school. Since my tittle wasn't a sad one, I passed everything. Haha, but for this kind of results you give to any other person, they will sure go emo. I'm not:) Haha.

Yesterday was quite excited. Cos I played mahjong in school! Haha, damn funny cos we went to some table to play. That place also not say very ulu, teachers can still walk pass. So we have one other person keeping watch for us, den when she saw a teacher, we swipe all the tiles off the table. Then no time also, some must be put in my pockets, then we just act normal and talk. Like in those illegal gambling dens, they try to run away. Funny.

I didn't go school today again. Like twice in a row for a Tuesday. I didn't msg my supervisory, so most likely I'll need to take thumbprint attendance form tomorrow onwards. I woke up and msg my friend to help me sign in, but it turned out that I msg Ben instead. -.- To cut it short, I asked no one to help me sign in, but just now I checked, I was sign in at 8:30AM. Hmmm... God's help. lol.

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I guess we all need our miracles eh, pah dai. Haha. Orh.

God, thank you.

Okay like wow, funny how God works eh. Always in idiot ways. Haha.

So from my previous long post of...words, I ended off hoping that the next service I would meet God again. I'm happy to say that He answered it:)

During the praise and worship segment, I knew it was different already because I could finally like cry, feel the presence during the worship easily. It was really like long long ago since that happened.

And for the word, the pastor mentioned the first point as, "Moses is dead." Its just kind saying to not dwell in the past anymore and stuff. So the words that I used like, "2 major setbacks", on my previous post just flashed on my mind. Haha, aiya, I know I idiot cos every time when comes to a post where I try to not be idiot God, its quite short.

I don't really know how to react now. I've always asked of it to be something more of an emotional touch, please really come and help me in what ever ways. Yeah, so bottom line, happy lah. Haha.

(Haven't seen Becky for 2 weeks thou.)

God, where are you?

So this is supposed to be the 'emo' post I said I'm going to do. How to say, I didn't plan to write it now as in now(3:08AM) but because of something, I think its the 'correct' time to do it.

Something* : It was Tianann's Bday, and so there were 4 of us(Denise, Ben) just doing some catching up and of course talk. These kind of talk would lead to God kind. Haha, so thats why I say got 'link.'

This is going to be quite messy, and a long post. I will just type what comes to mind.. So that was a bit of a back story of why I posting now. Next would be the back story of the post itself. Haha, damn act like, I know..

How to start? Okay, first off. The tittle sums it all lah, I need God's help like really now but He just doesn't seem to be hearing me..

What I want(need) now is healing. Not that I don't believe in God, if that was so, I'll be just an ass coming to church everyday right. To do what? Be some clown and entertain people?

I'm just in those spiritual dry state but abit more idiot kind. Something like on the fence, one slight push and I might just leave for good. I really want a powerful encounter with God, something better than the first love. To me, the first love is when you accepted Christ as your Lord and saviour, when you first felt this special presence. Now that the youth is on a series of "back to the basics", and so of course it will touch on the topic of your first love. They would say, "Just go back to the first time you encounter God lah."
It will be different. Why? Because when I first accepted Jesus, I did so because I believe in..aiya you know lah, those stuff ok. Not because I wanted healing. But now that I learn more about God and stuff...

Its like, hey do you know God heals? Really? Ok, so now I'll be praying and seeing that I'll be healed. Happy happy smile, cos I know that I'm going to be healed. Guess what? It got worse.

To those who don't know, I'm suffering from eczema. Considered idiot cases kind. I know its not as bad as say diabetes or cancer.. The thing is, you are not me, you do not know what I've gone thru and going thru now.

Back to story. As I was saying, it got worse right. That was the time when I back slided(CHC) for about a year and then came to CNL. So it was like when I accepted Jesus again after the Revolution camp, it got from bad to worse. Like wow. Well, this of course proves one thing as pointed out by Ps Adrain before. Satan is real and he is trying to stop us form knowing God. And I so agree with this. So what does it mean? Satan is more powerful than God, cos he can make my skin more idiot and yet God can't do anything about it?

I know the answer to that question. Its no. Because God has a plan for everything... Blah Blah Blah. That is the standard answer. And that all things good comes from God and he will never do anything to harm you. So why does he ALLOWS Satan to do it. Aiya, I step into the wrong direction already, I'm dragging it. So to those who know what I'm trying to get into...good for you.

What that means is that is it when I give up on God and step away, my skin would be better? Answer again would be No. Why? Because Satan is an ass clown who would go back on his word. Not that I've had a talk with some demon and he is offering me a contract to be anti-Christ and my body would be healed. Haha. But if this do happen like now, I sacred I lose it...

Because I really cannot take it anymore. GOD. Please. Where is the promise on the part where you say all things you put us thru is something we could handle. Below are some pictures of what I meant form bad to worse. Like never before happen, always a new spot. Is my leg area, the outer right side and left side.

It looks like I've fell down thats why got bandage. No. Its my leg part 'leaking'. I need to cover it up if not the thing would just flow down, which is an idiot feeling when you know like water is dripping on your legs. The ass part is that it STICKS to your jeans. Which is why I need to cover it.

This is when I take off the thing to bathe. I can't just put that one bandage and cover it up forever right. Because I ran out of proper bandages, I'm using tissue paper. So you can see that it sticks to my leg...

Just talking about bathing, I can like write another post on how idiot it can be. But I won't. Because I really believed and had already planned out my testimony speech. And by saying it now, will like spoil it when I stand in front of the whole church and share.

So you see, I really really want it to happen. But after things like miracle rally not having any miracles and me not being healed last year when Ps Adrain told me that the Holy Spirit said I would. You know how this 2 'setbacks' can make me feel? I'm still just clinging on based on a FACT that God is real.

I know I've said it before. There is still one thing which I haven't really done it. I did it for a while but couldn't last. It is fasting and praying for it. Like real hardcore fast. The reason why now I'm still not taking this step is because of my lack of faith. What if it fails? Like form now I fast all the way till this year's miracles rally. And after that nothing happens. You know, I'm scared of that happening. Faith faith faith. How am I to have it after seeing 2 major failed attempts.

This is when I don't put anything to cover it. Like when I just bathe finish and not going out kind,
so don't want to cover. It just flows out yellow stuff. Its something like blood if I'm not wrong.

This is how shit ass my jeans would look if I don't cover it. People might not notice it, but it bothers me. Really.

So far all the pictures is like just one part of how idiot my condition becomes after accepting Christ. As you've seen form that pic of flowing stuff. Can you imagine how I sleep. Or why I prefer not to sleep. If I sleep, I would scratch. And It would never 'heal.' Oh yah, I must mention this. If I cover it, its good right. Nothing will stick to it or flow around. But like this it would not 'recover'. Not like gone but hardened. When it hardened by itself, the stuff wont flow. Haha, but when I sleep I will scratch it. So back to square one.

I just looked at the time, its real late, or early. 4:57AM. Haha took me some time eh. I think this shall be part 1.

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As I mentioned earlier about the talking with Tianann, Denise and Ben. I didn't share much or at all. I just want to say, you think your problem is actually not as bad as mine. But I think otherwise. Aiya, dunno how to say. Denise told me that she saw me teared when Ben like mention about me. Dunno isit God or just me. Well, but I did teared twice just now. So ya, that made me think, again.

I think I writing crap now. Errr, Ende, I know you will read this. So I say. Urgh, I really dunno what I'm trying to say but you have seen that I myself also idiot God and yet I keep asking you come church. You are a smart person, try to figure out what I want to say. Haha.

And so I pray that later(Sunday) the service would be THAT one service/message I need NOW.

Sleepy Sleepy Sleepy!

But can't sleep! Why? Cos I'm in school now and apparently there are some visitors from IDA coming over to look-see-look-see.

(They are coming in my room now)

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Ok, gone. Haha. My room the people had a stupid idea. They went to lower the temperature so that they cannot stand it and will faster move off. Lame..

So why am I sleepy? Cos I haven't slept since yesterday morning. Last night just couldn't sleep. Played Castle Crasher alone to level up. Unlocked 2 new characters and 2 new pets.

Aiya, I'm like thinking what to write, my friend just called me to go downstairs to eat eat. Haha. FYPJ is nothing but eat, sleep, surf web:)

I put God in a box

As the saying goes, "Don't put God in a box." Some how or rather, I just have to see it the other way. Well, I thank him for answering part of my prayer last night. But really, is that all You can do? Why is it that the big things are not happening.. Do I just count on you for things like stopping stomach? Hah.

Feeling quite sleepy now, although i just had a one hour nap. I slept at 5am last night, not being idiot, bu I was just tossing and turning on the bed. I tried to play the new Xbox arcade game I bought - Castle Crasher(SGD$22). But I'm quite weak alone, for you see, It is meant to be a 4-player co-op side scroller game, very fun indeed. Yesterday Ben came over and we played it. Haha. Today maybe he coming again, but gym first or something like that. So...if you want some noob fun, please buy a controller and come to my house. Haha.

I want to go back like now, but my supervioser hasn't seen my face for the day yet. Later he thought i never come again. I bought my HD today, looks like can connect hamachi in school, so play Warcraft. But, it will have a 1 sec lag, so the only game I could really play is TD(Tower Defence) Like the most boring-waste-time-game. Dunno why people like Ben and Eph likes it.

Oh no, I keep farting, I hope is not smelly. Damn, it is.. Luckily the person beside me is not there. Girl somemore...

(Got bf le, haha.)

FYPJ: Week 2, Day 6

Its once again the time where i have nothing to do but blog. (There is...but..)

Now is the time where most of the people working in the fish tank would go for their tea break. Doing project in school the whole day will really burn up the wallet. Cos you would just head to the canteen or cheers to get something.

The start if today was not that good. Firstly my right eye was quite blur. Like how to say, if I view with my left eyes covered, it would look blur. But if i view with my right eye covered, it would be normal. Aiya, common stuff that happens to me, just that it was some time ago that I last experienced it.

Next was my leg. Suck ass spoil my day. Just looking at it can like cry. I will save my feeling on it in another post, the 'emo' post that I've talked about.

Why am I here to suffer? Like wth.. Kind of agree with what Tianann said while he was half sober after drinking at my place. Its all because Adam sin and we now have to pay for it? Its the war between God and Satan and we're caught in between. We must be in one side, cannot neutral or both. Free will? Heh. Giving us trial and test for what hair.

With so much 'free' time, nothing to do but think...

So you think you can dance? 2

Looks like I can't. Haha. Maybe I'm better at 'free-style' than following exactly form video. Looking at the video and think you can dance like it is really different from trying it out. As I didn't have a proper kind of chair at home to try out the whole dance(mine is the got wheels), I only managed to practice a full run at the church office's meeting room. Like 5-10 mins before the start of Culture Spot..

Haha, trying to find excuess for my loser performance. Quite idiot. I forgot the moves when it was quite close towards the ending, so I requested for a re-run. But also boring already, saw most of the moves already.

I guess everyone had a great laugh. I think Ian is worse than me. He can only do the hand-like-a-tv-head move. If you were there, you would know what I mean. Haha.

I dunno why, but I'm feeling quite happy now. Like after the service, at the market there, got high feeling for lame "jokes."

Erm, this will have to end quite sudden...

FYPJ: Day 5

So I was hopping to be able to continue my dream.. Or to just dream while sleeping. But no..

Yesterday was quite idiot, cos I'm not feeling well. Head to school as usual but went to the doctor during my break and got an MC for the day. (actually I do not need the MC to skip, cos my teacher was not around and I still can't login to the system) As I was saying, though I was sick, I didn't went home, went to sentosa instead. (was like forced to)

Quite loser wearing jeans and play on the beach. Also nothing much to say, no beach mood.

Today I came late for school. Woke up on time, just decided to sleep in. And so now is just waiting for lunch break. After lunch would be sleeping break. about the last one hour should be doing work. Haha, that would be the plan for the next 11 weeks.

Because of FYP, I have yet to hit the gym for this whole week and I haven't practice my dance for Saturday. Only mental practice.. No choice, tonight will do it!

(Ende, cannot blog about the dream la. Also not real, dream nia. Haha.)

I'm planning on a 'emo' post soon.. Not that I want to act idiot, its really idiot that it is happening.

Best dream

I think I just had one of the best dream ever. It was so idiot when I suddenly woke up. I was like what? Its all just a dream!? I actually woke up on time(and earlier), but I decided to sleep in, and in the end I woke up at 2pm. I didn't go school, but I'm lucky cos the teacher msg to say he is not coming today. But I got to show something to him on Friday.

I feel like writing about the dream, but pai seh also. Cos about girl and that girl is Yixin. Orh. Haha. I could still remember most parts of the dream. If only it was real..

Anyway, yesterday during the NAPFA training, we did a mock test. My results is as follows:

Shuttle run: 9.3secs
Pull-ups: 7
SBJ: 225
Sit-up: 34
2.4Km: 11:28mins

We didn't do the sit and reach, but that one I confirm A. I'm happy for pull-ups cos I still haven't finish my gym training but now got show improvements. While I was at my 4th one, I didn't feel as tired as last time. The sit-up abit weak, but is no body help hold the legs, so maybe.. Haha.

Oh, I won something from the Canon contest, not first prize thou. A 2GB tumbdrive. Haha.

FYPJ: Day 2

Ok, so yesterday was the start of my FYP. Now till 21 Nov, I'll be stuck in school from 8-30am to 6pm. Super waste of time, its even longer than most working hours, with only an hour of lunch break. (Can idiot and go for 2 hours tho..)

Yesterday I thought it was just a briefing and it would be done in an hour or 2. And that it will start NEXT week, giving one more week to slack. But I was wrong:( My plans for yesterday was all spoil cos I need to stay till 6, although no attendance was taken.. No more sentosa on Thursday and gym-ing would be quite idiot now, cos will feel sian to do it after school. Its so boring that I'm blogging now. Ha.

Skip also quite idiot, cos my supervisor already told us before hand that even if got MC must call to tell him, cannot just MIA. Haha, must really make use of MC properly. Cos I can just go see doctor for my skin and he will give me if I asked for it. Heh.

And every Tuesday at 4.30pm, all the boys would have to go for a run and some training for NAPFA test. I wouldn't mind if only the school gym doesn't suck. Running...must show my power already. Haha.

My supervisor happens to be one of my favourite teacher. Its the one that gave me like 3 chances to present my 'website'. Haha. My task is to create some programme using Java, which I didn't learn - now must read tutorials and follow to do it. I'm doing it solo, dunno good or bad for me. This is the last chance to try to pull up my shitty GPA score.

About 1 and a half hour more to break.. This is worse than working at church office.

Oh, EA is letting everyone to download Red Alert 1 for FREE. 13 years anniversary and also gearing up for the release of Red Alert 3. All go download leh, then play:)