Few more days left.

Down, up, down..

Sad. But what to do? Just keep walking.

For a very long time I have not played on Live.

I just played MW2 from 10pm-3am. Intense. Back to 5 years ago. Playing with all the familiar people. Brings back memories.. Haha.

Working so far has been, a good experience overall. Most of the times it really just depends on the kind of customers you can come across.

Haha for one, there is this young girl, I would say like sec 1 or 2 nia, I saw her at the store again and she recognises me and ya. Haha I know quite idiot, so young, happy hair. I can also recall 2 others that remembers my face. Haha, and both are quite chio..

Today there is also another couple whom I remember seeing them before. Aiya the funny thing is my colleague has this nickname for her, damn funny yet fitting.

And also today for the first time I did a book delivery for a customer to Fullerton Hotel. Rich..

I watched Bride Wars last night, and I cried. Ha

One of the worse day during work; my nose was running and idiot customers just seemed to be approaching me. In my mind I was thinking, "I cannot catch a break." Reminds me of Big Bang. Hah, only funny if you watched the episode.

What I'm worrying now is how can I actually pay for the shares I bought. I thought it was through GIRO, but apparently I opted for the wrong option. Like quite noob to go to the office on enquiring what to do next.

I've waited for about 2 months now, finally my copy of Batman Begins HD-DVD have arrived. It had abit of hicup at first, the item was like lost during transit. Luckily I contacted Amazon and their customer service is pretty good I would say. I could choose a refund or they could send another copy with the fastest shipment option. So in the end I'm cool with them. I like the tagline they have on their email sig.

We're Building Earth's Most Customer-Centric Company

To me, they are going towards that direction:)

I just bought my very first stock - M1. The price should rise after the arrival of the iphone at the end of the year, I hope. Haha.

Now I know a tiny bit of what philosophers 'do', it amazes me. Makes me know that it is actually very normal to think, like out-of-the-box kinda thoughts. I still remember when I was like pri sch, I thought to myself, how come I am me. Like how my hands move when I want it to. Like idiot thoughts which makes me go.. wow. Ha.

While working I was browsing through one book which says that most of us at the age of 14 would ask deep deep stuff, so deep that I guess we can never know. Some have been debated time and again, while some pretty much have a answer behind it.

I wish Westlife comes out a dvd/cd with all their old songs. Just a sudden boy-band love.

Suddenly I just wanna have a movie marathon, might be due to the lack of visits to the cinema as of the past few months. Last night I watched The taking of Pelham 123 and Monsters VS Aliens. I remember the reviews for Pelham wasn't that good and so was MvA. Turns out I really like Pelham 123, and MvA really does suck - except for one scene which I LOL'ed.

After a quick review of my financial status, I have really over spent during the month of Oct and before. This month I'm really tracking my budget, must get use to a monthly pay of $400 soon.. Haiz, but I do know that it is not my pay that is fueling my spending. Must use it to create cashflow, cashflow, cashflow... Haha, only Tian ann would get it.

After the last K session, I've been listening to some old chinese songs. Not really old, just one, two or three albums behind. I guess it comes at the right time. Ah shit, it will only make me go more emo. Which is actually just me. I don't see that as a 'bad' word like Ps Adrian or Ruth do.. But I must say, my emo is not the same as Joshua's kind. Ha:)

Will be going to Nyp for the last time, I hope. Thinking back, it is really the worst 'studying' years of my life. In total there are like 3 stages only.. Haha. Oh well, it could have gone either way.

Thinking about a realtionship between God and humans, or me in this case, really gets you...no where. I have to get from 'no where' to 'now here'. :)

Just came back from work. I guess I'm quite certain now that one of my female colleague is filrting with me. Haha. My reaction so far is what I had answer on the 'Arkham Asylum Psychological Evaulation' quiz on facebook, not my kind, but just play along. Along that line la. Haha.

Finally found a good place for Thai Massage. $48 for 60mins, I think its quite ok, of course can't be compared to Thailand where you can get it for like $9. Ha. Some moves quite painful, like being in a submission move.

The other letter that I've been waiting has also arrived. Haha, time to start trading..

In actual fact, I'm quite scared I make the wrong choices. Ha.

What to do, research more. Research. Haha.

I must say, I feel quite sad for Ris Low, her future seems quite bleak, dispite her having some 'cleb' status now. It would be quite easy for her to have boyfriends here and there, but marrying someone, that is like another story. Unless the guy's family members have not heard of her before. Her future carrer is another thing to worry about.

http://www.clicknetwork.tv/watch.aspx?c=5&p=16&v=250

Lazy to embed it.. No doubt she made me laugh, but really, doesn't she know that they are like jacking her. Ha..

Long time since I uploaded pictures. This is what I bought 2 days back..





That above thingy cost me $238.. Haha, but its cool ya:) The locker can hold 20 games. There are only 30,000 copies..

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I guess I'm a good person, apperently not good enough to make a stand.

Good move God, do more. TY.

After about 4 months, I cut my hair. Guess I couldn't wait that long for army to cut it. Speaking of which, the letter of enlistment has finally arrive, again. I'm just being an ass now, haven't told any one of the actual date. I should plan a holiday before I go in. Good news is that I'm still Pes E. Can't wait for the 5 and a 1/2 day chalet, and after which 2yrs of..NS:)

Awaiting for another letter to arrive...


Kinda slipped behind abit from the lack of QT and stuff. Luckily for one, God doesn't give up until I decide to. It was quite refreshing.

Did something rather unexpected. I asked a random stranger what is the tittle of the song he was playing on the bus. Haha, normally I would feel irritated, but this happen to be an old Cantonese duet song that I've heard before, and I like it. So I alighted at the same stop and just asked him for the tittle.

Working later at 11am, I planned to sleep by 5am and wake up around 8. I'm just caught in between NBA2k10 or watching finish The Big bang theory. Its damn funny. Like really damn idiot.

This has become so lame..

Norton Inner Circle really not bad. Went for the launch of Norton 2010, this time round it is better than the first one. Got food as usual, free copy of Norton 2010, one flyer ticket and other prizes which I didn't win. Ha

http://almost-famous.tv/lol/ <---- Funny, I re-watch to LOL more.

Hmm, what Ps Adrian prayed over me after service was quite half-half. Felt the presence none the less. Must look more into it..

This week is damn slack, will only be working on 2 days. I like it, but I know I'm wasting it away, as usual.

Sometimes I wish God would just appear and help me out.. For I am toooo weak.

Ok, just got my first ever apple product - the 3rd gen iPod touch.

Instantly regretted. Haha cos I should have gotten the 32GB one instead. Oh well..

I must say, the main reason for me getting the touch is just to try out the 'oh-so-good' app store. I'm not very impress.. I don't use iTunes until now and I have quite a bad impression of it. My iTunes has error and hang for a few times already, all within like 3hours..

Haven't even used it to play any song yet.. Which I know the touch is good for everything but a music player. Haha.

You know you are weak when...

Your triceps aches for 2 days in a row after doing 75 push-ups.. Heh.

and,

You know you should be at that certain high level but just failed to live up to it:(

Weak - a love/hate word. Haha.

I have a target in mind now.

After everything fades away, and you stand alone wondering what this feeling is, you know that your purpose on earth has a far more greater meaning. - Me.

Act-like. Haha

Just had a buffet lunch again, this time is international style. Up abit. Haha, I'm like enjoying life now:)

Finally my poly results are out and I am officially grad. Despite having my first A, still doesn't really push up my GPA. Heh.

Received a rather unexpected call today - the secretary. Haiz, but its not what it seems..

After a 2days off from work, sian to go back tml.

And Burno is the worst movie watched yet, this year. Worse than Year One. Totally loser, although I did laugh..

Yesterday while working I saw Becky's dad entering Borders, but I was the only one at the register, so I couldn't the place, can't shout across either.. IF Becky was with him, I might. Haha.

During my dinner break, I went to lido to get LJS. At first I thought I saw Jasmine, but its not her.. Anyway, since there are no available tables, I asked if could join her, she was alone. Haha. She finished her food earlier but didn't leave immediately, she took out her iPod and just sat there. She only left after I finished mine. Haha, and she said bye, so did I. Haha I know I think too much, act like she waiting for me to say something.

My nephew clapped for the first time. That was when my sister(his mother) was trying to play the guitar part in rockband. Haha so cute.

When I decided to meet up with reagan, I had picture him coming to cell, really. At first he didn't want to. But during the course of the day, we talked abit and he decided to come. And I supposed God did touch him on Friday. Just look at his msn msg. Yay.

I really feel that it is more 'important' to 'save' back those who had 'back-slided'. Its like they have known the truth so its kinda no excuse.

Might be because I had always been the luke-warm kind towards God or whatever and the stuff that I've gone through but still some how clinging on. The way I feel about the church just makes me able to relate to those who had left or what. Haha, so idiot. Basically some one who has been there and done that.

Please let me have more testimonies to share, keep them coming in God:)

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On a idiot side of things. I have learnt that nothing is certain. Just lost some money. Heh.

Correct that earlier post - I can finally play the drums part of my GH:WT. Only bad point that it is 4 pads only compared to the 5 on GH. Being quite pro at these kind of games, it lacks the challenge. Haha.

Unable to sleep now, was super tired in the evening while play guitar, so I took an hour nap around 8, now wide awake:( Only scared later tired at stupid timings, still have morning shift later on!

Keep on repeating 21 Guns..

Your faith walks on broken glass..

Haha time for some boring post..

Today started out pretty good. Woke up early, so went to work eariler to have BK breakfast. Was doing register today, so mood also higer plus I was waiting for work to end cos I had planned to get Rockband1 set + Beatles game. Woo.

It turns out my dad doesn't know the beatles that well despite having so many of their cds.. Haha anyway can say is 'family-bonding'. My mum and dad was singing and me on the guitar. My sister watching and laughing. Heh.

I like the DLC for Rockband, didn't regret getting "21 guns" and "Don't look back in anger". Haha and now I'm pro at the expert drums, for 21 guns:)

Only sad thing is that Rockband stuff can't be use to play my GH:WT. The buying of the set from that idiot guy would always be my most noob transaction. Con me say can fix easily.. Didn't even managed to play a single 'proper' drum game on World Tour.

Enough of happy sharing and rants.

Do you know whats worth fighting for?...

Wow, just when I have learnt the "real" side of the meaning; sacrifice and obedience, God has shown me this verse..

"To obey is better than sacrifice, ..."

- Part of 1 Samuel 15:22

To double-confirm. As seen on my previous post, to obey is what we all need to do. I love times like these when I know He is with me. Not infront or behind, but side by side. Haha, sounds so pro:)

I have to fight myself everyday. I thank you that when I confess, you really forgives. I'm forgiven..(and now the song plays, haha)

..Amazing love..

"A thousand times I failed, still your mercy remains.
And should I stumble again, still I'm caught in your grace."

I love that song, but the problem with that is knowing that fact and still..stumble. Like really what the hair.

I'm still in this curise mode when I should be taking it one notch higer.

For the first time, I've cried like how I would when being touched by God, when someone decided to leave Christianity. Its like how they would say; a burden in their heart for the lost. Sounds so 'act-like', but it is.. That was last night.

Today after alter, I went up and requested for prayer. The vision that Ps Terence revealed to me was kinda.. Finally its time to get my act together, I really need to hear from God, like really hear. Its kinda unbelievable how things have changed, and it is going to be more so, in the future. Oh well, I've already knew that God is - indescribable.

And I'm working at Borders. Tomorrow training starts..

Another brand new start:)

3 days in NUS, and all 3 days I would come across fairsians, all different. Makes me happy, yet sad.

Oh well, regrets in life is just something that would never go away. So, just do it. Heh. Pain might last for a min, an hour, a day or even years. But regrets last forever.. Actually I got that last line from some poster. Haha.

So I should really just try a front/back flip some day..

At least for every regret made, there is someone who will make things right. :)

Ok, so ya, God showed that it is Him that plans everything:)

Update: Another financial blessing is coming in.

Now I'm abit afraid on handling it. Please really give me the wisdom.

I feel quite loser for the things of the past, now and future, but I know all things would work Your way if I allow and believe.

Let me learn obedience, for that is all that matters.

Love ya, Thank You.

Tianann just reminded something. I did mention to him that I've realise now that it is really difficult if you can't save little or tithe with the little income you have, it will be harder when you have more.

And just when I really started giving 'proper' tithe and felt the need to save for something.. I didn't need to now..

Just hope my investment is proven worth while. Nah, I know it will be.

Ha, is this a sign that I can handle it? Answer please, thank you. And if this is really what it means to be testing You on this issues. Then I can safely say it is proven. Haha.

As far as I can recall, I just attended the first family meeting initiated by grandfather. It was rather sad...

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4am now, couldn't sleep earlier on. Watched a repeat ch8 serial, quite nice, got my favourite actor in it. Haha, but if its showing at 3am, guess I'll miss quite alot in the future..

My dad told me that my grandfather wants to meet all of us, like my sister and cousins, like got something to say. I just hope is not something bad. That will be in the evening.. How to say this, I'm quite sure he doesn't attend church and stuff, but he does know what Christianity is, I think. Haiz, I won't have the balls to talk to him about this also.

Some more signs please, just to be sure. After that I'll head for You.

Sleep or not to. Scared I overslept, cos I really wanna say hi to uncle. Lol.

I was so looking forward to the last day of work, not because its ending, but I was supposed to have a lunch appoinment with someone. Haiz, she has a last min meeting..

Finally out of school.

What a stupid day to start the last week of work. Hope tomorrow every thing still goes smoothly. Report still not started.

Just looking forward for lunch.

Money was wasted today..

Hehe, next week would be the last. Lets make the best out of it:)

Excited.

Report seems to be at the back of my mind, and the stupid agency PC check...

Just in time, done with Proverbs now. Ready for the one year devotional booky.

Hmm, kinda boring blogging here.

How nice to know that every thing seems planned. Not my plans, but God's.

This morning could turn bad, but I guess the Lord had picked me up again.

A verse I couldn't seem to understand last night, was answered by someone today. And I didn't even plan to ask that... :D

I'm feeling quite good that I have a few but growing verses in my database. Don't let me be hao lian please. Haha.

In the past, my thinking of love is sacrifice. Now it is still that but more.

What is the one message we should learn? Give.

Although give doesn't = sacrifice, sacrifice means giving.

Above all else - Obey. I think that sums up everything.

Yesterday should be the first time reading the Bible during the day. Ok, not really the first time, but in a way a very rare time. Heh.

Believe or not, I'm putting my pro dude memory into use. Memorising verses - for now should be on Proverbs. (2 a day) If anybody recalls, about 2 months ago I say I would start reading Proverbs. Continuing now, guess I took a looong break. ;)

I had finally came through on a question I've always asked people and myself. So happy. I feel very girly to type like HAPPY!!, you know. If the previous line makes no sense, nvm.

Last night I also started on something new. I felt like writing a book a few days ago. Haha, it is not Joshua kind of books.. Yeah...

So fast comes August. Yesterday I started lifting up my dumb bells again. I did 3 sets of 12 on bicep curls and..I was done. Ha.

Still a start..

Look at the time, its 4:43am.. After bbq, Tian ann came over to play Marvel vs Capcom 2. Just paid for the full version last night, quit fun and easy to play. Of cos we didn't play till this time, we stopped gaming around 2, and we just went to the usual playground spot to talk...

Speaking of which, just now during/after service was just - God. It is really quite indescribable, like so many different emotions, thoughts and stuff were going on. Won't type it here, nor would I know how to go about writing it.

All in all, quite a day. And I think Joash grew closer to me. Yay:) Wondering about Becky now...

Soon and very soon. Soon and v-e-r-y soon...

A rather sway night..

My first 'bike outing' with Ben and Mark, and it turns out to be so idiot. Lazy to type now also, another time perhaps. Wanna watch a few movies or just sleep. Hopefully waking up with a fever.

Yeap.

Just done it.

So last week I went to the Kobe Asia Tour, was quite excited at first, but after it ended, I wished kobe did more stuff - Like dunk over somebody or something... (Saw a youtube video where Kobe dunk over 2 person on his 2007 Manila tour) Was a happy day overall. Haha. Click here to watch the entrance, haha like WWE kind. Didn't managed to get any nice close-up shot:(

Please come again.

Been into reading recently. Cash seems to be running out, no more shiok spending. Until next month.. Haha. But July's pay really cannot touch much, must save....

3 more weeks. Report not started. Have as many connections as possible.

Didn't know airport is quite a cool over-night hang out place.

Let me have fever.

Such a sad thing that it is making me laugh.

Was so excited last night when I found out that Kobe Bryant is coming to Singapore. Wooo, like Kobe Bryant leh. Best player in this generation right now. And he is better than MJ. Heh.

Anyway, thanks to facebook's random ads. Haha, sometimes those ads do really show some interesting stuff.

The lucky part was that today is the first day of release of the tickets(FOC) at Wisma Nike store. I had thoughts of skipping work, but that would be too idiot. Anyway I did manage to get hold of a pair. I q'ed for about an hour - 'my offcial lunch duration'. And I was like the last few to get it, cos 10mins later the tickets were all given out. I was also lucky cos the store open at about 11, which gave me more time to reach orchard. The q was quite long, all the way to the outside of wisma... Well, there are still 2000 more at sistics outlets, starting from tomorrow till the 19th or while stock last.

Sat I might head down to Wisma again and hopfully be among the first 50 to get a Nike-Kobe shirt. That would bring me up-close-and-personal with him. Hahaha. I think that people also will camp. For the first guy who got the first pair of tickets, he camped over night since 9pm.. Haiz.

No need to go LA to see him. Excited!!

Time passes so fast. This week would be my 8th week of internship. Haven't start on my report and also wouldn't know what to write, everyday is just like standard task..

Met another secretary, not first time see her kind but just found out that she was also from NYP and she also just worked not long ago. But next week is her last week. She is one year younger than me, and I thought she was older at first. Haha she asked for my number, like so random, act-like say next time got IT help can ask me...heh.

Got something out of my chest. I had to hold back my tears, if not it would be damn noob. Lets just hope this is a turning point of sort.

So many things happening..

Can someone smack my face.

Preferably an angel in disguise.

Dots...

During my work attachment so far, I've come across quite a few Christians. But yesterday and today were more than that.

Yesterday, my boss's boss was walking back to his room(his room is behind my desk), I could hear him speaking in tongues. I knew ling ago he was a Christian, cos at his desk there is a 'I love Jesus' thingy. Anyway, I just asked him were you speaking in tongues? His reply was, "Was I?"

Erm how to say.. I also dunno why I typed that out. Next story.

Today I was also just chatting with another big shot kinda guy. He is a trainer for the managers. We were just talking and he asked me about what I wanna do and stuff. I told him I won't go into the IT field and so he asked like why learn that in the first place, blah blah blah.
Then he mentioned about his talk, which he calls it, "The purpose for a purpose". Quite a nice name, but instanly I thought he would be those who believe in themselves and can archive everything by theair own means. So I scanned around his room, and found a clue to show that he is a Christian too. So anway I asked, "wouldn't the purpose thing be different from God's kind of purpose?" He said not true, can be the same. Anyway again, he is from VFC, haha but not attending the one at Jurong. And, I learnt something from him. I felt like it was from God anyway...or maybe its just me. Heh.

By answering your prayer, doesn't that show love?

Yup, I never did quite look at it that way..

Everything starts with book, it is the benchmark.

And that is the one book I would rather not read..

Uncluster your life.

Haha okay la, damn act-like. I've forgotten some of the things. Oh well, just hope for another chat soon.

And I saw anthea just now. Some how I can just sense it. Lame.

Okay, finally gotten a bike. Jamis Trail X2. I still quite noob on bikes and stuff, might learn more of it, soon. Haha.

And yesterday should be the worst day of work. Haiz.

I have been shitting water-style for the past 4 days. Now I want fart also scared, must hold back.. And this morning when I reached tiong bahru station, I need to go to the toilet. So I went to tiong bahru plaza. First floor toilet no entry, washing, so thinking to hold it(I don't wanna miss the shuttle bus) or find another one, I choose find another one. Went up the 2nd floor and that toilet also cleaning, at that time I just shouted WTF. Not really shout, but if you're near, can hear. I think the cleaner heard it. Damn loser, wash toilet hair.

Anyway, watched Transformer 2 last night. Got free tickets from the company plus popcorn combo. Now that is welfare. Nice movie, very action packed, might be a little long for me.

Just got Splinter Cell:Double Agent from someone. Long time never play stealth games, play already can make my heart rate damn idiot.

Adult

So yeah Today is where I am officially called an adult in the eyes of the law. Act like nothing can stop me now. Haha but mentality wise I guess still staying in the secondary-school level.

Ok so yesterday was quite fun/weird. Haha, thanks to Tianann. Orh.

Aiya actually like nothing much to say. This post again is just for remembrance sake. Haha:)

Champions!

Ok I know, like a day late.

The Lakers are champions again. Like finally. And as Kobe said, this trophy can finally shut those people up who said that the Lakers need Shaq to win championships. This win also made Phil Jackson the coach with the most rings - 10.

6 with Bulls and 4 with the Lakers.

I really hope that the next 3 years in a row Lakers will be champions. Wooo

Haha something about today. I went to the 18 floor 'for fun' kind, cos there was nothing to do anyway. I helped one of the agent there to do some stuff, and we chatted. I mean before today we also got talk abit here and there, but today longer lor. She make it seems so easy to be an agent. She was also quite shocked to see my hair, lol. At least now if really nothing to do, got lobang to be a FA.

When I was about to leave, I also told her the reason why I like to come up here. Haha. I also just went over to the secretary to say hi. Haha, happy that she said it looks good on me. She thinks the current style now is good enough, no need to go spike. Speaking of which, finally can wash my hair tomorrow:)

Haiz, still haven't seen her yet..

Supposed to post it yesterday...

I rebonded my hair.

Haha, for the first time a new style after all the years of curly hair.

Feels quite idiot for now, like very light and thin. Cannot wash for 3 days so now my style is just a normal side parting.

Look very guai.

Yup, no picture thou. Heh

Ok, just watched Hannah on Ch33, finally the 2.30am slot is showing season 3.

Funny.

Moose, moose, make a moose, make a, make a, moose. Make a moose, make a moose, make a moose, make a moose, make a, make a, moose. *Ends the song with both hands at the side of your head*

I know, on words it doesn't sounds funny at all, but must know the beat and sing. lol.

Moose number 1 = Moose[Bruce] Lee

Moose number 2 = Moose[Luke] Skywalker, may the forest[Force] be with you.

Made me laugh.

Finally upgraded my laptop with more RAM and running Windows 7 (RC) on it. Feels kinda cool, but I didn't use Vista, so wouldn't know the difference.

Her smile brings a smile to my heart. Ha

Hmm, so after all these, looks like a childhood dream might still be possible.

Really needs alot of faith to get it started thou.. Haha.

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Anyway, today work was super boring. After lunch break there was like no cases to attend to. Luckily for some reason I decided to bring my ZEN along. Killed the time with music and drawing. And I got my one week pay, cos I started on the last week of May, so there is the pay for the month of May. Ok, I'm like repeating the thing..

At least there was another thing that got me happy. While the life door was closing, the girl agent from my previous post walked past, haha and she waved and smile. That gave me the balls to go and ask her for lunch. But she wasn't in when I went down again. Oh well.. I have 9 more weeks. Hah

Bump into a secondary school classmate on the train, Ryan. He is entering NS next week and I was quite shocked that he is in Pes B. To me, his skin exterior looks the same as mine if not worse. And he also has a letter from the Nation Skin Centre but yet he got into B while I am in E. Hmm.. Same goes for another classmate of mine, skin condition quite bad, but yet Pes C. If it is really God's plan to put me in Pes E, then thank you so much. But this would also only hold true if I were to be enlisted by Dec.

Haha, today I tried to make friend with a newbie agent that came to the helpdesk for some troubleshooting. She looks kinda like my age group so yeah. I used my pro dude drawing skills to impress her. lol. As you know, sometimes work can be boring if there is nothing to do. So I drew Winne-the-pooh, Tiger and Eeyore - copying it from a tissue box lah. I think my copy drawing skills not bad. I will bring back the drawings to hao lian:)

But nothing beats looking and having a short conversation with the 18th floor secretary:p

Re-watched The dark knight in the afteroon and the ending part I cried, again.

Went online reading Naruto again, the part where Jiraiya died, cried again.

I have such a soft heart. Haha. So funny that a movie or a book can make me cry so easily but yet..

"I guess that this is where we've come to" - First time hearing it and I love the song, got the beat.

I gave it another shot...

But what was the reply.. Nothing. Not even a single hair or smell.

Yesterday was just anger I felt, but today it is disappointment. I took that step, I asked, I seek ed. I also feel sorry for Ps Adrian, praying so intensely for me yet nothing happened. It almost seemed like everyone expect me felt the presence. Sad to say, I wasn't alone.

So isit our fault? Yeah, I guess so, cos it is never God's fault. Wow.

I just wanna shout it out! Can you ALL, especially those who crossed that "line-of-no-return", put that commitment into practice. How much does it says of a person, if they keep going through the same thing, time after time. I did not cross because I took it seriously, it is not the matter of not having faith, it is really weighing everything and be true to yourself. Better stop writing.

Like what Ps Ben said, encounter can be a daily thing - on the part where the presence of God is strong and real. But if it is an event to be set-up, what does it shows? Either God didn't change us or we just keep failing. Both are negative points..

Encounter hair, again.

I'm just so angry right now. I could type the things out, but it wouldn't be nice. So I'll just say that, IF there is another one next year, I won't be there.

So many factors that got me to experience this stupid feeling. Like one of the worse moment during a service/ministry. I just felt so much anger.. And I knew this would happen even before I reached the hall. I won't know what Ps Ben would talk about, but some how I just knew if I did turn up today, it would not be a pretty good encounter. Call it a vision if you want to. Hah.

At first I confirm will come on the Friday and for Thursday is a maybe, which is more towards a no. But plans didn't happen, so might as well come right. Wrong move, really. So tomorrow would be a 'see how'. Money aside, I paid $5 for a sermon I heard previously. With 'some' other topic mixed into it. But for someone with a pro dude memory like me, haiz.

Like I said, the more I type out the more idiot it will be. Although I did plan not to come for Thrusday, but during last week's Alpha's prayer for Encounter, I did feel hyped about it. So don't give me the bullshit of not expecting anything.

*I know some of you form Culture would read this. If you did had an encounter, good for you.

Urgh. Let work be fun tomorrow.

Just when I thought I could give up gaming on the 360, Microsoft gave some pretty good reasons why they are still the best:P (Haha)

Stayed up for the LIVE e3 conference, and it was worth it. The biggest announcement should be NATAL, the answer for the wii. Its like full motion body control of the game, the controller is YOU. Imagine playing games like dragonball on the 360 with that. Haha, more tired then playing on the wii. The other game I would want to get is Rock Band: The Beetles. Haha, my father is so going to play, I think:) Just hopes it will come to Singapore...

And must watch this trailer for KotOR 3. I think is for the PC only though. Wow.

The rest of the games line-up look pretty good, like Splinter Cell, Forza 3 and Halo3:ODST.

Nintendo's conference will start in about an hours time and Sony would be after it. Just hope I can wake up on time.

Work is fun:) Hahaha, damn idiot.

Updating..

Just a update on the blog..

Started my internship this week, with______________, as IT helpdesk. Haha, so far still can, no scoldings or any idiot cases. Only bad thing is it can get quite boring when there are no cases to attend to. Cos you can't surf the net or sleep on the desk like in FYP, haha and my boss' boss room is just behind me. I haven't been to every floor yet, but so far the 18th floor is my favourite, the secretary not bad, still can remember my face too.

HA, I'm smiling now... (Decided not to put the name of the company up, heh)

Other then that, nothing to say. Tuesday went bowling with Ben and Adrian. Adrian plays like Fred Flintstone, walk like act cute, haha. After 3 games still don't want to sink in and listen to the correct way of walking. At least the 4th he did his best so far, with a few straight balls and 2 strikes in a row. As for Ben, he is re-learning how to bowl. Teaching him how to hook as he is using his dad's ball now. But abit too heavey for him, even for me:P Shall see more of bowling soon.

Let tomorrow be a good day of work:) Woo, can't wait to see what the 17th floor has to offer. Haha.

Signs to show..

That I'm getting weaker or just plain FAT. Haha.

Lets see.

Tried to do pull-ups today - Did ONE
Sit-ups, last night - 20, and was tired
Jogging/running last week - Tired after 2 rounds

The most obvious point should be that, I could grab a hell lot of excess fats from my tummy area.

The sit up is suppose to be a daily thing starting this week. Doing just 20 really makes me, cry. Well, maybe its just not like taking Napa or what, so I won't push myself. At least I did 40 in a min, last year.

I got myself into this, I can get myself out. Its still part of my overall plan anyway - to gain weight. That was the easy part, getting back in shape is another question.

My motivation - Ian Low. Heh:)

Its slow, I know

Haha kinda wanna do a reverse on the tittles.. Lame. Actually there is a meaning. The reason why I feel 'slow' is because I see people graduating now, like photos of them. Haiz. I already lag by one year, now half a year more, and the worse part is, I don't even care shit about this diploma. The thought of re-doing O lvls or taking a part-time diploma course (something I have interest in), makes me... I dunno, fill in the blanks.

On a good note, I felt rather productive today. Haha, I spent my time in the lab doing real work. Which is writing the report and die die tomorrow have to come up with the presentation slides. Cos my presentation is on Friday. It was kinda last min change. It was suppose to be on next Wednesday. The real due date for the report should be next week, but my teacher just want a final draft by tomorrow, which is kind of a good thing. Heh.

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Last night was quite loser. I just blogged finish and was about to start reading my Bible, a BIG moth flew in. I was like 'trap' on my bed for awhile cos that idiot was flying around the door. When it was near the light, I quickly dash out with the Bible. Haha, I tried to lure it out by turing on the living room light but it was still in a frenzy in my room.

After a while it stopped moving and it stayed near my fan. Here is the loser part. I had to ask my younger sister to come and just help me do something about it. She damn act like not scared leh. Haha cos I wanted to off the lights in my room ya, but abit dare not. So my sis just went in and off it. I asked her to go back in and turn it on, the moth was not there any more, but it certainly didn't flew out to the living room.

I asked her to go in and help me look around. She said there was nothing, so I went in still scared and using my bible to hit my room area, like the walls. It was when I hit my bed, that idiot started flying around again. I screamed and ran out, again. So the same thing happen, lights off and go in and checked again. This time I asked my sister to take a closer look around. It was clear.

I wanted to close the windows and on the air-con, but was afraid that it is still in my room some where, so I didn't. Haha I tried to read the bible, but was abit paranoid that something was behind me. I quickly finish 3 chapters, prayed, went to off the lights, cover myself with the blanket and just pray and hope that it is really gone.

Ok. That was quite long..

Something similar happened not long ago. I off the lights and was getting ready to sleep. I felt something moving on my back. At first I didn't care about it but it seems to keep moving. In an instance my mind just went 'oh my shit!!' I just quickly pat my back and ran out the living room. I on the living room light and slept on the sofa. Heh.

Slow yet steady

Went for a jog/run with Ende in the evening. I think it was the first time for this year. The last time I went for a running training was for my Napfa. Haha, anyway quite weak, after 2 rounds I suck. At least I think I can sprint for a 100m. Without a real stop watch, my timing was about 13secs + -, haha. I always thought the timing of below 10secs is actually quite slow for a world record. HAHA, lets just see if I'll improve in time.

Yesterday was also the first time reading my physical Bible for QT in this year, I think so lah. I didn't want to continue with the SOAP thing for now, so I started choosing a book to complete. And I chose Proverbs. And that is what I need now - discipline.

"The purpose of these proverbs is to teach people wisdom and discipline, and to help them understand wise sayings" - Proverbs 1; 2

Haha, after reading that verse, I knew I on the right track. Thanks, God:)

Oh, and I just tried the newly opened Astons near my house coffee shop, and it was good. Haha.

A long time..

Yesterday's Alpha would have to be one of the best, with its ministry time - at least to me.

From the start, Ps Adrian said something about the usual, the presence of the Holy Spirit is strong here, stuff like those.. Honestly I didn't 'feel' anything at least not to how I would gauge it in the past.

Anyway, there was the word which lead to the ministry time of placing ourselves in the alter instead of things in our lives. And even up till then, I still didn't feel anything. I did noticed some were already crying and stuff. The only thing I could do is to just pray, pray, ask and pray. I wouldn't say worship because imo, you have to be at a certain level in order to be really worshiping God.

The things that were running thru my head were the things I'm praying and asking God about and you know, the usual, please speak to me about it. Like really hopping that whatever Ps Adrian pray upon me later whould have at least a link to it. Haha. It did.

The moment his hand was upon me, there was heat and I could feel it and tears would flow. Like I said, that was to me how I would gauge the presence. I would always ask for smothing more than just tears. This is really to me, one of the, or the 'real-est' thing about God. Yeah I know some would say, God has always been speaking just that I forgot or what.

I won't say what was it about but yeah. The best thing was it did not just end it there. There were things I was asking God about. Ps Adrian covered one of it, and the other was Nadia. Before Nadia prayed over me, she was praying over Brian and ofcos I could hear some of it la. Haha, and I was just thinking to myself, c'mon what about me? Aiya the feeling is just idiot lah.

Anyway I also felt the heat and the things Nadia said was what I was asking what to do next after what Ps Adrain said. Which also was one of the things I was praying earlier on. Haha, confused? Thats too bad. Haha.

I have to look to God.

Attitude

It seems by now some teachers in poly thinks that I have attitude problem towards school. Heh, one of them said that the teachers have a hard time understanding me because my reply to them is always a one syllabus answer. Orh.

By now I also believe that almost everyone in my lab thinks that I'm the pa dai, loser kind. I'm kinda lazy person, I know that but..wtf la. I answer back with one sentence must shoot me back with dunno what hair. Making a mountain out of a mole hole. Yes, I don't like this course nor this school, and I should have quitted way earlier. It was 'face' that made me want to go to a poly no matter what and it is also 'face' now that made me idiot.

Ahhh.

I'm still scolding in my mind, make me can't think and type.

Kao..

The edge..

Oh my shit, I don't want it to go this way. Tomorrow shall be idiot. Today was a stupid move also. Totally WTH now.

Is that really the path I have to take? Please don't let it be, even if it is 'planned'.

Okay, okay. There are like many things for me to blog about but I just seems lazy and so.. The longer the days drag, the lesser it seems needed to write about.

I need to sleep like. now.

And down the rabbit hole I go..

Today was such a bad time to be late for school, or should I say, pon school. 4 more weeks to go, don't be a loser. Besides, teacher would be away to China for the rest of the month. Now that is a good/bad thing, but in imo, more to the bad. Heh

Win, lose or draw..

Stupid NewEra and also to that person who sold me the GH:WT. Pay $70 for the repair. If I don't, it will be just a piece of junk taking space. If I do, I feel so loser also. Now is not the question of repair or don't, is where to get the money to repair.

There is no other way..

Why am I still running away from it? Keep harping on that incident. Must I really hear the words then I'll forgive and forget. Haha, quite hard too dey, my memory is pro dude in stuff like these, useless stuff.

Make the right choice..

Haha okay, it might seem abit idiot the way I'm writing this post. The key point is, seem.

Firm or fall

Okay, I now feel happy yet at the same time, not so happy. Heh

God's plan or hair.

Was reading the book, which is still on the topic of servent hood and stuff. And one verse was quoted, a rather famous one. The one which says that man cannot serve both money and God. Upon reaching home, went to search on the topic on gambling and sin.

Haha, many things can be gambling, as a matter of fact, many things are like gambling. Even just hanging and wasting time.. Though the Bible doesn't have a specific law, like one of the 10 commandments, that states that one shall not gamble. There are many points to show that it is wrong in many ways. The whole world is hooked on to it.

Gambling is lust. (I did not came up with that)

Guess what? I won, but I fell.

Wow. I was about to end it with that line but..

It all started because I was talking with my project partner about soccer, and it soon ended in the topic of betting.

I just told him I won. He said good for me and he asked me to stopped betting, in case I get addicted. I was quite shocked to hear that from him. He says my way is by luck, his is experience. Heh.

Get up to walk, or lie on the soft grass...

Let it be a sweet sweet sound..

(to your ears.)

One of the song we sang during worship and prayer before the play. Haha, old songs always rules.

Not to forget the song sang during praise and worship, before the play. "Above All" Haha the three of us were singing like a choir while the band is practicing for it.

Although I wasn't in the crowd to see the whole play, but I guess it went pretty well. It is really the Holy Spirit doing the job. The rehearsals we had didn't nail it good enough, so ya.. It is halfway over now, still have Sunday to go, which is not much actually.. Heh.

Was quite a tiring day overall, but seeing the number of responses kinda made it up.

This shouldn't be mentioned here but.. HA, I'm feeling quite happy for the wrong reasons. How now brown cow?

I called, You answered

That's my current personal message on MSN. Also taken form the song, "Came to my rescue".

I was initially quite happy because of this, this being, God answered a simple prayer. To cut it short, it was during Saturday's service. Steven was willing to believe in God again, stuff like that, but he was afraid to raise up his hand in front of everyone. So I place my hand behind him and pray. Not aloud, just between God and I...

And everything else is history, thank you.

Fast forward to Today, I was just reading on something and it got me thinking. I might be wrong here. Yes, God has a will for everyone, but that doesn't mean He causes everything to happen. Rather, it acknowledges that because He is sovereign, He must at least permit or allow whatever happens to happen.

The thing that gets my head spinning is this,

"Judas was fulfilling God’s sovereign will in betraying Christ, just as the Romans who crucified Him were. That does not justify their sins. They were no less evil or treacherous, and they were held accountable for their rejection of Christ. Even though in His sovereign will God allows or permits sin to happen, we are still accountable to Him for that sin."

Haha I'm still thinking about it. Please let my pro dude mind understand it.

Tomorrow will be a long day, with presentation and the last rehearsal for Godd Friday's play. I hope everything runs well. Get to see Joash, as he will be one of the crowds too. Haha.

And yup, Good Friday itself, speaks for itself. If you get it, good for you:)

Bounce (Bounce)

Haha, kinda lame song, too 'pop-py', but can get high also.

Lets hope for some solo performance on the last night or something.

Anyway today's chapter for the book I'm reading is...never mind, I dunno how to say also. And its not only for this chapter, I think the whole book speaks alot. Erm, just read it.

Everything begins with your thinking. Although from The Matrix it would be, "Everything begins with choice." Haha, but before you make a choice, you got to think first. HAHA. So yea, Rick Warren is so correct.

What I need now is not tell signs of God or the 'feel' of the presence of the Holy Spirit. I already know what is what, I just need to make a decision, a commitment - discipline. That is what I need.

Some things just can't be spoken. And I'll end of with a Thank You again. Haha:)

"I guessed I always knew" - Mary Jane, Spider-man 2

Haha yup, that was what came to my mind after I saw my results. I passed my one and only module taken last semester, but If you recall from previous post, I mentioned that I had fail the common test and also presented my friend's work during my project presentation and also the final exam I just did a last min 'study'.

I was really quite uncertain If I would pass the paper anot after I finished it. It is just so... miraculous.

Always wanting for a miracle in direction A, but God has already shown me so many many times of His involvement in my life in other directions.. And always complaining that my real grip is that I don't see the love of God in my life and stuff. Now I have also seen a different light of the condition of my skin problems. I guessed I can say that, I've grown. (Haha, that sentence itself already shows, "not really". )

Its about time anyway. I pray that God you would show me more. And I say,

"Thank You", again.

Why

After so long, finally something to write about.

Anyway, just had another rehearsal for the Good Friday play. From the first day of rehearsal, I already felt something, I felt that it was just right for me to be involved in it. Haha and acting as a solider kinda 'suits' me. Given that I wasn't always right with God, but it was on that week that I actually could feel/see/whatever words la, Him.

Today was quite special. Olyna started singing this song, and I had the lyrics as well.. I think most of us teared abit, I sure did. Haha.

I think I shouldn't spoil so much, so if you wanna see the lyrics, its below, if not, don't scroll down. (I say don't spoil as in later you will know what song she is going to sing and stuff. Apparently this song is also known as the Easter Song)

Thank You.

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We rode into town the other day
Just me and my Daddy
He said I'd finally reached that age
And I could ride next to him on a horse
That of course was not quite as wide

We heard a crowd of people shouting
And so we stopped to find out why
And there was that man
That my dad said he loved
But today there was fear in his eyes

So I said "Daddy, why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why is He dressed in that bright purple robe?
I'll bet that crown hurts Him more than He shows
Daddy, please can't you do something?
He looks as though He's gonna cry
you said he was stronger than all of those guys
addy, please tell me why
Why does everyone want him to die?"

Later that day the sky grew cloudy
And Daddy said I should go inside
Somehow he knew things would get stormy
Boy was he right
But I could not keep from wondering
If there was something he had to hide

So after he left I had to find out
I was not afraid of getting lost
So I followed the crowds
To a hill where I knew men had been killed
And I heard a voice come from the cross

And it said, "Father, why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why are they casting their lots for My robe?
This crown of thorns hurts Me more than it shows
Father, please can't You do something?
I know that You must hear My cry
I thought I could handle the cross of this size
Father, remind Me why
Why does everyone want Me to die?
When will I understand why?"

"My precious Son, I hear them screaming
I'm watching the face of the enemy beaming
But soon I will clothe You in robes of My own
Jesus, this hurts Me much more than You know
But this dark hour I must do nothing
Though I've heard Your unbearable cry
The power in Your blood destroys all of the lies
Soon You'll see past their unmerciful eyes
Look there below, see the child
Trembling by her father's side
Now I can tell You why
She is why You must die"

This is going to be like anyhow typed.

This post is to remind me that today Becky and her sister is just so cute. Haha. First off is when I entered the room and Kristen(I think that is her name, I feel so idiot for forgetting her name. Haha) saw me with a packet of jelly. So she faster got off her kiddy car and come to me. The idiot thing about her is she can talk,so is just very cute. She knows how to say things like take away the plastic(from the jelly).

I'll just go straight to the last bit. Is like I'm walking off from the hotel and Becky's parents were in the car and I think they saw me so they pulled down the window and Becky was shouting and waving bye-bye to me. HAHA, how cute is that!

Yup. The only sad news is that I know the parents wont be going over to the JW building. Haiz so my chances of seeing them again is like....so little.

Purpose..

I hope to find it 37 days later.

But for now, I feel so SIAN. I don't know why, for some strange reason I'm like super..sian? I got up from my nap like an hour ago and it just feels so idiot.

Is like one more week left, and after that is FYP all over again. Its quite unheard of, failing FYP, but what to do, shit happens. Ha. Just give me a good topic to work on.

Got some things I wanna say it out, but I know the way I put it across can be idiot. Oh well, just keep it in, like so many other things..

Stretching is tough! Feel like giving up on the goal to do a split. Haha. There is actually no need for me to do it, I just think that being able to perform a split is something...is like a skill. Haha.

Today after service made my day. At long last, my 'investment' paid off. The 3 kids I love, loves me too, I think ah. Haha. All would offer me the chips they were eating. It is just so cool. Haha. But I also know that there is a side effect in favouritism, other kids might hate you. Lets see how it goes next week.

21 years on this earth. How to celebrate it? Heh.

Today(yesterday) was Valentine's day.

I saw Jasmine with her boyfriend.

Haiz. Haha.

Gui Ji

That is quite an old song by Jay Chou. Thanks to Rochelle's blog, I came across this song. Abit emo, my kind of song. Haha. I like the lyrics..

*如果說分手 是苦痛的起點
ru guo shuo fen shou shi ku tong de qi dian
If breaking up can be said to be the starting point of pain

那在終點之前 我願意再愛一遍
na zai zhong dian zhi qian wo yuan yi zai ai yi bian
Then before the final destination point, I’m willing to love once again

想要對妳說的 不敢說的愛
xiang yao dui ni shuo de bu gan shuo de ai
I want to tell you, the love that I dare not express

會不會有人 可以明白
hui bu hui you ren ke yi ming bai
Will anyone be able to understand

Haha, just want to say that I like this part. ^^

Hope Thursday really going to sing K. :)

Mango sago dessert

I'm happy today.

Cos I did some cooking today. Mango Sago Dessert seh. Wanted to add in pomelo, but erm, no money, quite ex. Haha.

I got the mood to prepare this after eating it 2 days in a row. Haha. I think not bad for a first time. Just that because I doubled everything, I sort of added in too much evaporated milk. Which made the colour not that nice, and can taste the milk taste.

So no picture. The next time I do it again, would be perfect. And it will be soon!

Monday blues

Well, not really, just a random tittle for a random post.

Lets announced some good stuff. First of all, I finally have Guitar Hero: World Tour. Yay. But I got only the drums and mic, got it for 2nd hand. Actually I kinda of regretted buying it. Should have gotten the full set. I didn't know you can't use the normal controller to play the drums or guitar parts. And my GH3 guitar the blue button also abit spoiled. And the new guitar has the slide thingy.. And I bought the game alone for $79. And.. Ya, wadever.

Haiz. At least there is another new thing I got. The Zen X-Fi! If you remember, I did blog about wanting that player few months ago. This is also 2nd hand, but I know for sure it has been used only once. The player itself also abit idiot. It hangs..

Seems like everything that I wanted to get and have gotten it, goes wrong. First is my KS20, GH:WT, now Zen X-Fi.. Sucky year it seems. Haha.

Thats all, back to calling NewEra support..

Hort Park

Okay, so I went to Hort park with Mark and his Mark II. Haha, this is a rare time when I actually took alot of shots without human face in it. Haha, love taking macro shots:) Below are some of my favorites. Enjoy. Its up at fb anyway.

There are bees at the Sunflower

Don't really like this, just to show off the Mark II. Orh.

All the photos are taken by me, expect 2 of it(ofcos one of it is the one above..). Will go for more photo outing. Haha.

Relax days ahead..

Yeah, wadever, like as if I'm not living in relax mood all my life.

First thing first, happy cos my presentation is over. Another 'heng' kind of presentation for me. The teacher knows that it is not my work, but I think I'll still pass the project. Its 30% only, still have a paper for it on the 9th of Feb, 50%! Haha, but usually exams I not that scared, cos I know I'm smart, just study for it and I can pass. Haha. Also lucky for the fact that the presentation is 1 to 1 kind, not to the whole class.

After school, went to Vivo Ben, Adrian and Ruth. Ate the most idiot prawn mee, it cost like $8.50. Haiz, all Ben's fault, don't wanna talk about it, make me sad only. Haha.

Finally today I receive my CK Tang voucher...
Haha, who says there all no free things in this world. Got the vouchers from doing surveys online. Wanna join, tell me, I send you invite. Really, they will reward you for your opinion.
Haha, thanks Denise for this pic. Was taken quite some time ago, on Tianann's Bday. Orh. Now then post cos I also just received it. At first Denise couldn't find the memory card and so ya. There is actually another shot of me with, how to say, weaker muscles. Haha, we were like doing a before and after picture. Dunno should post the 'weaker' one anot..

I'm actually quite excited for tomorrow. Going to go take pictures with Mark. Yes, I know, my camera is like noob compared to his. I think I still got some skill in taking pictures. At least I used to be abit interested in photography once. Haha, bringing him to some nice place. I don't remember the name of the place, but..its just nice la, sure like. Alpha can go there for cell too.

Now that everything is quite okay, can enjoy this coming CNY le. Time to collect bonus for the year$_$

This is to waste time for..

(Wizards and Hannah to start)

Haha, about 40mins more.. I do not have the 'feel' to blog actually, really like nothing to blog about. Truth is, quite alot to say, just that I shouldn't blog about it..

Wanted to watch Hannah Montana 3D, like soon, but its over.. That was quite a short run on the box office. If I'm not wrong, it opened on the 8th. Now like just 2 weeks and no more liao. I can only blame... Melissa and Anthea! Hah.

This year CNY doesn't feel like it. Maybe cos its earlier than previous year, I dunno. Just hope that the money collected is enough for me. Haha. Should I buy Lips or save more and buy GHWT. Both also waste money.

Most of my resolution like broke already, damn loser. At least not totally. The new year is still quite young, only 20 days has passed by, lets get back on track. (Act like encouraging myself...)

Still got more things to 'worry' about dey. Like my Citect project presentation on Thursday. Kao, I haven't even started on anything. Does God really help me in these kind of situation or am I just plain lucky. I whole day only 'think' about it, but never do anything. One module also can fail, I can smack face already.

Jump topic again. End. :D

(I know you will read this) I think Juanne really looks like TT. Haha.

First step in school

(Since the week of youth camp)

Haha, yup, today is my first day going back to school since the New year. Only for one lesson, one hour lecture, and guess what, I got the timing mixed up... I arrived at 12 when it ended.. Damn loser.

Went to watch Ongbak2, alone.. Average film, boring parts but some really cool moves. Ip Man still pawns OngBak any day. Haha.

Now left Red Cliff 2 to watch and...I just found out: Hannah Montana 3D! Haha, abit idiot and ex($10) but I hope will have people accompany me to watch..

Oh, and I finally got my dream phone yesterday. Kinda old model by now, but who cares. The design is so simple and sexy. Sexy....


Still have one lesson tomorrow.. I'm really having the fun first before the pain. Oh~ Haha.

New year, new start

I know, its like 4 days late. Can't blame me for having no 'feel' to blog. I did mention I would post up my resolution for this year, but not ready yet. Anyway, its just a few pointers.

• To really take care of my skin, to get it better
• Grow spiritually I will(watching star wars on ch 5 now)
• Save money, and manage it properly
• No more BT, piracy= stealing, which breaks the commandment

That is just the top 4 in my mind. Wanted to put something about studies but.. I already got this feeling that the school has forgotten about me, its like about a month since I step into NYP. Now I only need to go school 2 days a week, the best thing is, this week is self directed learning, so holiday still. Even without it is still holiday.

One of my worries now is Army. I scared I no time to defer. Cos I'm 99% sure I will fail FYP. I scared letter come but I still need go school. That would be idiot.

Well, this year I would turn 21, should be a big year for me. I hope it is.

End.