The thought of coming here makes me realise that I've gotten over it', sort of. Just that now I'm stuck in this stupid part of my life. Need a bitch slap from above.

Not the day for the recap of the year post. Just need to know that life is kinda screwed up now and money is running out fast. Ha.

Christmas is over, a load off my shoulder. The question is, will I stay, leave or everything stays as it is now.

Wasting time here. Should have a post about my super cool new Windows Phone. It has been a week already, so abit too late.

Getting ready to bathe and head for V3. Really wondering why am I going there, again. Like 3 nights in a row. Somebody stop me, if not money would. Heh.

The world is such a small place.

Ok, so last night was an eye-opener. The legend is ture and it is hard to get any more lup sup than that. Haha.

Shouldn't type any more. Its just a dream boy, wake up!

The feeling now is so idiot. In the middle - in between normal and high.

I know this has to stop some how. Really noob to be sucked in.

Haha at least I got my first (2) applause from a stranger at a pub. Not bad I would say, but she's attatched..

Lets see what the day has for me:)

Please wake up from this dream...

Althought I wish it was real.

Everyone seems disappointed in me..

I'm disappointed in God.

What a week. It will all end up in smokes, so just stay out of it.

Can you hear?

Hmm..

SO many things that no one knows or understands!

Really sian 1/2 with my life now. Make a choice..

Damn tired and sleepy and its only the 3rd night of lesson! How to go on for 20 weeks.....

I will really have the dose off effect 30mins after lesson begins. Damn idiot, must act normal.

Tomorrow my only 'off' day, has been given to the Christmas production. Thoughts of giving that up came again. Haiz. Frankly speaking, I don't think I'm up for it in the first place.

Comes the emo part. Cannot type out here also. Ahhhhhh!!

Finally the day has arrived - first day(night) of school. Wah damn tired and sleepy, did doze off for a split sec. How to carry on for a year at least..

The date turned out quite idiot. Haha what am I expecting..

Need to sleep soon. Stupid day ahead.

Tomorrow shall be a fun day, I hope. Haha.

And the day after, first day of school starts.

Super not ready, but I had my fair share of 'fun' already. Haha. Lets just hope I can focus.

Really why did things turn out this way?

Guess that answers everything.



Got introduced to this song. A new low.

Dear God.

Urgh really messed up!

My first visit to a club. HA. Abit gay, went with only one friend. I know he really sacrifice to come. Emo week.

Its really quite a pointless thing to do but yet can be quite fun, I guess. Haha. Still don't understand why would zulus go to such places.

Got the most ex beers I've ever paid for and to make it worse, I think I lost the change. Heh.

Tomorrow would be, stress. Hopfully today I get my ass off and go out first.

I really don't want to end it this way.

Hate the feeling of running against time..

So many things that really needs my attention and yet my focus is on other nonsense.

This really cannot go on. Hello Jesus, need some sort of help here now. Thank you.

Emo my life away. Heh.

Quite a night, drank and sing. Haha best combi. Not very high but still can. Heh.

Still got to wake up at 6 in the morning.

Emo Hao.

All the best for tmr.

Going to bed soon, just drank..

At least there is a ray of light. Thank You.

Really a sudden change in my mood. This is really like emo level max already.

Why like really why? I don't get it..

It keeps playing in my head, just hope when the time comes I can do it. Prepared for the worst outcome.

Wow what a day.

Session with Ps Helen. I guess I've found my way back, or rather grace has found me. Still a long way to go tho..

Met Ruth after that. All I can say is erm, mix emotions. Haha.

And the day ends with watching Naruto. I cried. Haha:)

The next 2 weeks shall be interesting.

My imagination is running like wild now. Damn ass. Just hope its all really 想太多.

The coming months will be tough.

Guess I've really lost the connection with God..

All the things you didn't know..



Nice and sad song. Got to watch the movie to understand the song. The film won't win any awards, but I kinda like it towards the end. At least it touched me.

Will get his new album.

What kinda of feeling is this?

Just hope for the best:)

The feeling of meeting a deadline is back. And school hasn't even started yet. Why must do these kind of projects in army one. Sian 1/2

A part of my life is now link to - Pokemon. Yup. There goes all the cool points. Hah. I'll just see it as a, poor investment.

After a 5 hour poker session, I've won $2.. Haha really a rollercoaster ride game. Played an hour of 3-players mahjong, won $6. Ha.

Cab home, slept for 8 hours, wake up to eat and use com, slept for another 2 hours. Quite a wasted Saturday.

Kinda forgotten that Mt Faber Safra is just beside my camp. Back to bowling fun:) Just not sure which to train on, house ball or my own water melon.

I just watched The Noose, I think its damn idiot. The 'We are Singaporeans' segment really shows how noob some Singaporeans are. The question asked was, "Where is the highest natural point in Singapore?" The most stupid answer given has to be Changi Airport Tower and The Flyer.

Kao.

My first profit from the stock market, $324.52. Should be $396.52 if including dividends payout. Quite a small amount I know, considering it took about 6months. But it still feels like making money out of nothing. Haha.

Let Go.

The word for me. I know what it is referring to. Question is...

Can I?

Tomorrow I want more, please.

About one hour more to the start of Microsoft E3 press conference! Really want to sleep, but no choice.

Well, I guess I can say that God 'did' help me out.. For most people who do not know my current relationship with God is really so so so.... I guess the only word I can use now is pa dai.

And so now if I really do take up this role, is it the right thing to do?

"The only criteria is a heart after God."

This Westlife song comes to mind:

But if your heart's not in it for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on

Ok, its not a really good example cos this is a boy-girl kinda song. Ahh, makes me wanna listen to it right now.

Haha, I'm amazed by myself. I just youtube this song. I can sing without looking at the lyrics. Pro dude memory.

I really do not know which one I want more of. Need an answer please..

Did a really wrong move this time.

Paul regret, should have stood firm.

Quite idiot but if God you are really in control of this, guide me through it.

Sad.

Glad that the $8 Kbox promo is back, went twice this week:) Sing all the emo songs..

Call me slow, just found out that there is a part 2 MV for feng.

What more can I say?

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I just cried reading

And really down the rabbit hole I go...

Been some time. Lets see, took 2 days leave for yesterday and today. Planned and went, to the casino at RWS. Quite a coincident that the annual report from Genting Singapore was mailed to me on the same day. They decided to 'thank' the shareholders by giving 18 bonus Genting Points. Ok this is sudden, if I were to type out the whole story, it will be..long. Lets just say I have a rather unpleasant encounter with the service staff from the casino with regards to this membership thing.Just to show I've been there. Did win at first.. Yeah at first..

Still find it quite cool that I'm receiving annual reports from companies. That reminds me, is it really really God's plan or...

You and I both know that this is really IT. So if You are really who you are - show me. These past few months just, sucks.

Hmm, I'm not sure if I had mention here that I've gotten a new lappy, which is not that new now, but still is. Heh

Hopfully later can really get a new guitar. Time for Youtube fame. Haha:)

Oh and I just happen to watch CNBC live that apple has announced the new iPhone OS4 thingy. Looks like Windows Phone 7 could face some challenge.. Actually.. just erase what I just typed.

Feeling like crap like now..

Emo boy

Was tired and had to sleep early, got to report for duty at 7am. Slept around 8 plus and here I am. Haha I wanted to wake up in the middle of the night too anyway, to play gangster city. Noob shit. Just like how restaurant city affected me.

Damn sad, didn't get to order threadless in time! What is the point of having able to read my emails on my phone but dont bother reading it. That is just being act-like. Luckily I wasn't planning to get alot this time round.

My Asus is dying:(

Dandelion’s Promise

Finally a title..

Anyway that is just the English name for the song '蒲公英的約定'.

I didn't really like this song in the past, but after listening to the music of it and the lyrics, I like it. Learning to appreciate piano.. Quite difficult to sing tho. Oh well, nothing is too difficult for a Jay Chou song. HA.

而我已經分不清　你是友情　還是錯過的愛情. So sad. Heh.

It will be a waste of money if I really were to get a keyborad to learn, look at my guitar..

What was I thinking? Now really a little regret about continue playing basketball. Both my feet really hurts now, walking causes my shin to strain also as I'm using my heels and side to move around. Guess it was all the Lakers videos highlights that got my basketball mood so high up that I'll just hack and play. Time for more practice!

Should have stopped at the first game, oh well, what done is done. Luckily there is another thing that kinda cheer me up:)

Smiling to myself. Gay. Hahaha.

Hope it heals by Tuesday. CNY coming, another time to set 'resolutions'.

Can't wait for Ip Man 2.

I read some of my old post of 2007. Quite, hair-stand. Thanks to Nick.. Will find another time for 2008.

After watching the Heros of Earth concert DVD, made me go download those old songs that I liked and the ones that are 'new' to me but are actually quite old too. Yeah, only I get myself.

Thought I'll just write something here.

About 3 weeks out of 2 years of NS has passed by.. Luckily as a whole, time seems to pass faster as you age. I want to make the best out of it.

Comes the next big decision - studies. I do not want to disappoint myself like 3years ago. Act like so happy can get into a poly, say will get good results all the way. Turns out to be the worst of my education period experienced.

Maybe like what Ps Adrian said, some people bloom late. Ha but I know that was just an encouraging statement. I fully know what is wrong. Well, the only differance between then and now is, the God factor I suppose. Haha.

The problem is choice.

Why is there a sudden burst of movies that I wanna catch. And as the days goes by, I have to resort to BT or DVD. Heh.

22 this year, 3 years later would be my ideal age to get married.. Seems..haiz.

Dissapointed with M1 customer service.. Oh well, at least I'm still making a profit from them.

Wooo. Got a new phone - HTC Snap. Quite a pro dude phone, my kind. Hard to find one that has no camera but with Wi-Fi.

The OS is WinMo 6.5, so I can finally see what windows marketplace has to offer. Sad to say, compared to app store, some distance. To all who do not know, windows mobile is the one that has MORE 'apps' than Apple, only problem was that Microsoft didnt came up with a offical place to get the apps. It was just everywhere. Kinda sad that Microsoft has to play catch-up now.

3 more days..

Can't really decide what to do next.

3 and a half days into the new year. 2010 is a year of change, hopfully for the better:) I've always been a 'even' year person. So there're things to look out for!

Speaking of which - 11 Jan. Its a love and hate date. Just faster come and finish.

C'mon, make it CMPB. Better still, overseas.

God, how? Quite a few pa dai things happening.

Notice the assclown that is not on my link.

Told you so.